5 things Meme

Okay, I wasn't tagged, but wanted to share a bit about me. If you read this, YOU'RE TAGGED! Just do it, and link back to my blog, please.

Five Things I Was Doing Ten Years Ago

1. Home with my first kiddo
   
2. Had a Newfoundland
   
3. Watching Guiding Light
4. Having more sex
   
5. 
   
   

Favorite Snack Food

1. Chocolate
   
2. Chocolate
   
3. Chocolate
   
4. Chocolate
5. Popcorn

Five Songs I Know All the Lyrics To:

1. Any Def Leppard song
   
2. Any 80's song
   
3. Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star
4. Any Wiggles song
   
5. The Barney Song

Five Things I Would Do If I Were A Millionaire

1. Adopt
   
2. Buy a brand new mini-van (Honda Odyssey)
   
3. Help others adopt
   
4. Buy a house in Maine & one in Florida (summer & winter)
   
5. Get laser eye surgery
   

Five Bad Habits

1. Short fuse
   
2. Terrible memory
   
3. Computing till 2 am instead of going to bed when husband does
4. Being judgemental
5. Picking at boo boo's
   

Five Things I Like To Do

1. Spend time with my family
   
2. Sleep
   
3. Blog
   
4. Hang laundry on the clothesline
   
5. Read erotic stories
   

Five Things I Would Never Wear Again

1. My pleather red pants from high school (red plastic - yuck!)
   
2. Paisley pants
   
3. Big shoulder padded shirts/dresses
   
4. Baseball cap
   
5. Purple Nike's (8th grade/purple w/darker purple swoosh!)

Let me know if you do it, so I can check you out!

Tammy Faye Eating a Cheeseburger

Happy Saturday everyone. Woo hoo, 31 people have looked at my blog! Well, that's a start. Maybe I'll get more interesting, and more people will come. I guess I need to visit other people's blogs, too, and comment more. I do, when I can find the time.

Well, I didn't start my diet. Damn. Said I would Monday, and I didn't. Why is it so hard to get started? I just love chocolate too much. I need to cut it completely out, and I'm not sure why I'm not ready to do that yet. I definitely don't like how I look, that's for sure.

Well, on a happier note, everyone here is well.

Sad news. Tammy Faye died. Poor woman. She looked so emaciated when I saw a picture of her earlier in the week. I knew it wouldn't be long. Now, I'm not going to get into all the fraud stuff her hubby did back in the day, I wasn't there, and it's not for me to judge. I also don't know how much (if any) a part she had in it. So many times a woman doesn't know about business dealings, and even what the bills are. I suppose sometimes the man doesn't , if the woman handles it all. That's how it is in my house. I get my hubby's paycheck, and deposit it. I pay the bills. Hubby assumes all is well, and he's usually right. Boy I could really screw things up if I wanted to, though. Pay minimum balances and open more accounts... yahoo.

Anyone wanna go shopping?

But no - I must be responsible. I am responsible. I wasn't always, but I'd like to think I'm smarter as I get older. Ladies, if you don't know what bills you have, and have some involvement in the bills, you need to find out. What if (God forbid!) your hubby drops dead tomorrow. Where would you be? You should know. Get involved.

So back to Tammy Faye. It's sad that she suffered so. Cancer is such an ugly, horrible disease. Tammy Faye is no longer suffering. I believe she loved & served God with all her heart, and is in heaven now. (If she was involved in any fraud or theft way back, she's been forgiven for that.) Enjoy that cheeseburger (in Heaven), Tammy Fay!

Welcome - The Elephant in the Room

Welcome to my blog. Let me tell you a little about myself. I'm a 41 year old SAHM to 2 kids, seriously considering China adoption. I'm married, and life is good. Well, money it tight, but things are good.

I've been married for almost 18 years. My weight fluctuates, and right now I'm 5'2 and 180 lbs. That's fat. I hate my body right now. A year after my son was born, I was 120. The last 5 years I've put on 60 pounds. Emotional eating. I eat a bag of chocolates a day. My breakfast is chocolate. Lunch is chocolate. Dinner is whatever I feed the family, then chocolate into the night until bed. Is it any wonder I'm fat?

My plan is to start the Atkins diet on Monday. I did the Atkins diet after my son was born, and I lost 30 pounds in 2 months. I felt great, and looked great, too. I know it works, I just need to do it. Don't tell me how bad it is for you, it isn't. You're basically cutting out sugar and white flour. Yes I will eat veggies, and will add fruits after the induction. It will certainly be better than eating CHOCOLATE for breakfast & lunch, won't it?

I will get up the nerve soon to take that nasty 'before' picture, and I hope that will motivate me to stick with it. If I have to log onto my blog and see all that fat, it will motivate me! Yes, I gained all of the 30 lbs I lost, back, because I went back to my TOTALLY CRAPPY way of eating. I don't exercise, hate it. Don't have much time to.

Here's the thing. I was a thin kid, and a thin teen. I never HAD to exercise. I could eat whatever I wanted, and didn't gain a pound. Then I turned 30... and what happened? No fair! I can't blame it on the baby weight, like many do. I was thinner 1 year after the birth of my son, than I was before.

So, I hate the thought of seeing someone I haven't seen for awhile. I know they're going to see someone else we know, and say, 'you won't believe who I saw today! Andrea! Yeah, she must have put on about 100 lbs!' I feel like I'm hiding in a fat suit. I HATE the thought of being intimate with my husband. HATE IT. He doesn't say anything, but I know from years past that he doesn't like and isn't attracted to fat. He's been great, not to say anything about this weight gain. It's the elephant in the room we don't talk about. I'M THE ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM.